My happiness is fleeting...

I feel like I'm in the debts of an edge into free falling into oblivion. Where has life gone and why is it so futurless? It was happy one moment and now, it's unhappy. I fight daily to keep an even kiel. I try to think it will be okay but then this wave of terror creeps into my psyche and I'm on the down path to oblivion. Betrayal. Greed. Psychological warfare. Pseudo . Hang my head. Sad.